people pls do drink more water n have more rest! everybody is starting to fall sick, like me! this wk will be a tough 3 days for me, and den i will be on leave! Looking forward to sat. =)

it's really a tough week with so many things going on. God, i need more strength. more discipline. Thank you for healing me of my injuries. Im such a clumsy person, yet i know through everything, you have protected me from something worse. Thank you for never giving up on me.

the guessing is mutual. one day. we'll see.

just caught transformers lately. IT'S GOOD WAT. didn't understand why Straits Times gave such a bad review. This time round i actually could see the action instead of scrap metals jumbling around. haha!

Today i tink im ready. Sow me a dream, and i will birth forth your vision. =)

i will make it right for you one day, but not today.

im fine now. it's just recurring issues in different forms.

One day. i will conquer you.

for now. swim till i drop.

im sorry i imposed my value on love on you all.
im sorry i haven been attentive enough on you all.
I thought i covered all ground, but i have covered none.
PLS. dun love me so much that you all chose to keep quiet.
cause it hurts so much more to find it out from others.

took time to realise. that i haven been doing enough. haven thought of people enough.
i thought i did.
apparently it's not.

Happy PAPA day

heh. it's father's day. never thought i will be celebrating it. really. As some of you might know, i dun really share a great relationship wif my dad in the past. I was so young then, i couldn't understand why he's doing the things he did to me. Now to tink about it, tt probably is tough love. As i grew older, i finally understood.

when i was a child. i thought like a child, i acted like one.

now im grown up. it finally dawned upon me.

Papa lost his dad when he was really young. Grandma had to bring up 5 kids on her own. Im sure life was tough then, he probably didn't have much of a childhood fun then. The family struggled to have what they have today. That probably formed up what he is today. Always so thrifty, always doing his best for the family, to provide and care for us. He probably didn't know what love was about, what it was like to be a father, to shower fatherly love. That was why he's always so cold when i was young, why he would demonstrate such harsh acts and threats to make me learn.

He.. was learning to be a father himself.

Pastor Tan msg today reminded my rls wif my dad really. And i finally realised all this, when he said "when i became a father, i was like my own father, and acted like my own father."

Papa was probably just figuring out how to be a father too. Especially when i was so stubborn, so rebellious. Grandpa wasn't around to teach him the ropes. He had to do it thru trial and error.

Now to think about it, i am like what Papa has mould me to be. If it wasn't his scoldings and shouting, i would not have known the basics and made it to poly. If it wasn't his threats and beatings, i would not have learnt how to protect and care for the loved ones around me. If it wasn't his perseverance that never gave up on me however rebellious i was, i will not be the jed that you all know today.

My only childhood memory that i remembered so vividly was when i was in kindergarten, probably 3-5 years old. Papa planned a bdae party for me in my kindergarten. Mummy was feeding me, and i saw Papa carrying a box of icecream, and i told Mummy, "I don't want to eat already. I want icecream NOW."

Thanks Papa, i know i wasn't the son that u planned out to be. I didn't take the route you expected me to take. Yet, you were always so protective of me, and you told mummy you loved me so much, that i could do whatever i want. I hope i didn't disappoint you. And i want to tell you, you did great as my father. I'll probably be like you when i grow up, but definitely better, cause i know what fatherly love is now. Love you Papa.

lol fell aslp during blogging. cant believe i post it up yesterday though!

swim. slack. l4d!

looking forward to breakfast ltr. =)

charred

i tink i booked in as a chinese n book out as a malay siol. All it took was 3 whole days to get so burnt. nasty, esp with the uneven tans and all. argh, cant wait for it to be over before i can start to make amends. i didn't run much either this week due to the rehearsals going on, quite disappointing really. i need more time and more discipline! These past few days rehearsals have been quite tough recently, alot is expected out of us since we reclaimed the 'best armour unit' after 14 years, alot of practising to perfect the drill for SAF day parade. Haven really got the time to really sit down and relax in bunk. All day is just rehearsals with practising for atec stage 1. just a little more time, a little more discipline. i know i can, i know../
I figured i cant have the best of both world, i need tottt V

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!

hope u like your wallet and had an enjoyable birthday! i hope you had as much fun as i do. hahaha! do keep on keeping on, jiayou!

If you guys didn't know, i have been setting resolutions by the week and day. haha, just trying to set goals daily/weekly/monthly, rmb if u fail to plan, u plan to FAIL! And nothing will be more convincing to put it into written word!

1. Fast for this entire wk.

2. Go for a 30 mins or 4km run daily.

3. Go swimming and jogging after bs wif marc on sat and meet up jas in the evening.

4. start studying for ftt!

5. read the bible more, at least 30 mins a day!

6. pray at least 1/2 hr per day!

7. 15 mins revolution daily!

8. find a location for my bdae.

i can do it! =) and much loves goes to ll n sy. =) jy.

i tink i had the most injuries this wk. hahaha! a bump on my head, bruises on my knees and an injured shoulder. Really crappy to take all of this in one day, was so fustrated but too tired to vent it out when i reach back in camp. Really got to thank God for strength, the nxt day none of them hurt that much, i didn't even notice till i accidentally touched them. Tried very hard to fast for this wk, but just dun have the discipline for it. Got to FAST! oh yea, did i mentioned..

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY LIYUN!

really excited to attend ur birthday ltr! photos up ltr!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

To LL N KERK!

It was definitely an awesome birthday for both of them! hope u all like the presents and stay lovely always. =)

ll: i hate swensens.

kpk: ord lo!

Yes. talking about this, i've already finished 1 yr of ns already. Time really flies, now we're all 21 and all. So many changes going on, but it's for the good. I've never regretted it yet. =) Congrats to vtsz transforming into a vtZ now. really overwhelming with new people who i never seen before in church. But it's all good, cant wait for new changes.

Im really busy from this wk on actually.mon wed fri with pt, tues thurs wif saf day rehearsals and atec preparation on the way. I really need to lean on His strength all the more, n i really feel like going on a long fast. Haven't been doing that for a while, and i really need it. heh one day!

Been running around town finding presents lately. Esp for ly! cant wait to attend her 21st nxt wk! =)

honestly, there's so many things i want to do or get now. just couldn't find time for it. I guess im going to write it down first to remind myself!

i no longer want all that. i just want everybody to be happy.

im feeling so cranky today. perhaps it's the long training in the wk for the parade. I thought i nailed it today but there just another big parade coming in a mth's time. Rehearsal starts next wk every tues n thurs, while i will haf to juggle with my upcoming battle course for atec stage 1, and other commitments out there. Feel so stretched! n the egg i ate was so oily earlier on. super disgusted(random i noe) I need more strength and discipline!

but i will make it tml. i noe i will.

didn't make it. hahaha! nvm better luck next time. =) i tink there's a lot of misunderstanding going around lately, i gotta learn how to be a open book next time. heh! i mean, i thought im quite open already. oh well, everybody gotta learn something everyday. =D

So many birthdays coming up lately, I WILL LOVE TO ATTEND ALL ESPECIALLY YOURS LILENG!!!!!!!!!!!!

heh, so many things going on. God prepare my heart and the challenge im going to take on!

Man, this wk has been awfully taxing! im so stressed out by my tp which is tml! Even though i feel i could, i just need that extra assurance.. RWAR. hopefully i wun freaked out like my mum tml.

Anyway i just want to thank God this week for His protection. There's been a lot of theft cases happening lately, 2 psp n 1 ipod have been stolen from my bunk. We have no idea who it could be, but it's really quite disheartening to know. I mean come on, we only have such a meagre sum a month, why steal our precious valuables. As for me, im the VERY careless and VERY easy target to be pry on. From the fact of some habits i have, just really want to thank God that every morning i can wake up to see my hp/ipod/wallet still intact everyday. oh man.

PRAY FOR ME FOR MY TP TML!!! SERIOUSLY! =)

Life on the Moon

long wkend this wk. 3 days! Didn't managed to do much though cos i finished everything on the thurs 1/2day book out. haha caught a movie, went shopping and dinner wif friends.

Oh yea, i caught 2 movies this wk, Angels n Demons which i thought was really gd, and Night at the Museum 2 which is alright only.

I wanted to blog abt Angels n Demons actually, but i dun rly want to be a spoiler, so i shld keep mum till after the movie died down! haha! But a few phrase that i find quite meaningful would be

"People are not perfect. They have flaws, even me." - from a catholic priest in the movie. I find myself nodding my head like how i would respond in church during the movie, haha, pretty weird i noe. I would say this movie didn't have much God-bashing session than it was in Da Vinci Code. It showed how Man often go through means, even when it's not God's will, to help God. Got me thinking really. shall reveal more till den. =)

This wk was pretty much being led by the spirit actually. I find myself doing things that i would not have done, but we will see as things unfold i guess. Just got to keep trusting. =)

And many thanks to the ppl around me who's always willing to be my companions esp during the days im out of camp. Very much appreciate it even though i didn't played my part really well.

AND LASTLY. NXT WK IS MY TP. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. PRAY FOR ME! I dun have much confidence in it actually, just got to lean on God's grace! 30th will be the greatest day!

Mothers Day

sry didn't update last wk. Blogger was giving me a problem and i couldn't load up any photos. Anyway i brought my family out for a meal at some hokkien restuarant in Amoy Street. A restuarant tt the family likes to frequent. I was.. having jitters i would say, cos i didn't noe how much will tt cost me! haha!

haha i cant believe this got caught on camera! u can see how.. anxious i was about the meal.. "Good food at my brother's expense!"

Some of the famous dishes in the restuarant.



Happy Mother's Day mum!

After going through some issues in these mths, i really felt i learnt what's more important in life. I understood the meaning of "where your treasure is, there your heart will be." In the past, i would haf been more spendthrift due to how i was brought up by my dad. It's a cycle afterall, he learnt it the hard way, thus does not want me to follow his path too. Well, as a stubborn boy in the family, i had to walk that direction and i too, finally hit the wall. After that, i felt that money is not really as important as my dad used to say. I no longer feel a barrier when i give, no longer pressurise to hold on to that amt of cash in my wallet. It's like everytime i wanted to hold, i will feel, u haf given so much, wad's a little more? No longer am i bounded by the limits, no longer bounded by unforgiveness, broke free of my circumstances. Now, im just trusting God to fulfil His promise for me. I took a long wrong route, wad's done cannot be undone, but im just thankful He didn't make me walk all the way back. =)

Lastly, i just wanna say that im so PROUD of lileng. She shared a great life story that no alot people who have been able to. So many of us haf so many skeletons in the closet, but im glad she's willing to open her closet for us, to show us how Jesus cleaned up her mess for her. =)

Today i saw/heard/touch/felt God.

i couldn't think of any other simpler ways than this. thank you.

happy 21st bdae DERRICK

cheers to the many years ahead old friend. =)

it's almost 8pm! oh man, no time to blog a decent post. it's been so so so so BUSY! hardly any time to sit down other den having meals/driving/in church/chilling out. I promise to blog a decent one when im back this wk on thurs for LABOUR DAY ON FRI! heard MEN's confer is on tt day too. how awesome is that!

HAPPY 21st BDAE JASON

photos are available here

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=91625&id=541331849&ref=nf

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=78763&id=606853086&ref=nf

Lastly, i remembered during cgmeeting when veron shared,

David didn't went up the MOUNTAIN to look for stones, but he went to the stream by the VALLEY to look for stones. And the very stones that he picked, took out Goliath the giant in one shot.

God wont always use only the people at the mountain, but always the people that are going through the valleys, to test them, mould them, and use them mightily for His work. I finally understood. and I will keep holding on to that promise. =)

ICE COLD BEERRRRRRRRRRRRRR

finally got over with ftx. throughout the entire wk all i could tink about was ice cold beer when im done. SOOOO

Timbre!

*photos are taken under influence of alcohol*

*no influence of alcohol, juz one very busy lady with no time for us*

Botak Jones @ Sommerset

time to work on the last 5!

i spend my entire sat at home today. i cant believe it.

All i did the entire day is snack, tv n dota.

POLY DAYS LIFE IS BACK. but definitely not here to stay. =)

I need to be more discipline, nid to control my diet!

aiya heck wif it. full troop exercise for the entire nxt wk to turning operational! n eio is heading to army on the same day! guess, we're all embarking on a new journey!

im blogging cos im really bored now. any1 care to entertain me? =)

I came across this verse on a school building during my trip to medical appt this wk.

Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge

i remembered when i first read this verse, i did not understand it at all. 5 yrs ago, when i read it, the God i know is not loving at all. He's always this BIG furious God that wants everybody to fear Him. The BIG BULLY! Throughout this 5 yrs, i grew up and became more mature. I realised, that the fear, is not wat i thought it was 5 yrs back. This fear, is not fearing wat God will do to u if u did something wrong, but fearing how much it will hurt Him if u did something wrong. Fear of making him disappointed. It's to honour Him in reverence. After this 5 yrs, He's still BIG as usual, but not that furious after all. He accepted me for who I am, loved me when no one else would. He wants me to fear Him. not in a 'I-WILL-ZAP-YOU-IF-YOU-DO-SOMETHING-WRONG' but to take Him into consideration with every step and action i make.

This coming Easter will mark my 5th year in Church. Time flies. I have grown so much, yet it just seems like im running on a threadmill. Clocking the distance, but end of the day, still at the start. I mentioned to my platoon mate, a Catholic today. It's hard to balance between army and God sometimes. In fact, there shouldn't be a balance from the start, it should be God in you, in everywhere you're in. God in Army. Sad to say, im not quite up to it yet. I still make mistakes, still having doubts from time to time, is it God speaking to me? or me speaking to myself? I still find myself struggling on my own problems, unable to lean on God. I never had, cause i haf never understood it. Sometimes i tink i got it, other times i feel im no where there. Sometimes, i feel i haf just lost it the day i gave up. To build a broken relationship takes time, lots of trust and effort.

Sometimes, i really want to be right back 5 yrs ago. when, everything is just so simple, where being in the presence is just so in reach. Now, apparently my growth in knowledge has driftened me apart from this presence. I need to lift up this veil once again. Cos the bible hasn't say my growth in knowledge will make me fear the Lord. That will probably be my thinking 5 yrs back. but now understanding 'fear of the Lord', i tink i got everything topsy turvy.

I need to fear God, den it will be the beginning of all my knowledge, all the answers that i am seeking for, for myself, for others.

the 6 wks revolution, will be mending my mistakes, breaking the habits, and turning this verse to work correctly for myself.

Today is Good Friday. Today is the day i must learn to take a step.

6 WEEKS REVOLUTION

Blog seems rather dead lately. haven got much time to update either, so sry. but since u guys see me so much weekly it wouldn't matter either rite? heh. it's 745pm now, n i have 15 mins to write a post before i go back to camp.

Been really slack lately, but it's still a build up to the full troop exercise rite after Easter, n eio is finally stepping in to the 2 yrs of being 'vegetarian' also on the same day! Definitely going to be fun for him, n i hope to get out of it soon. hahaha!

Watched the shinjuku incident and detroit metal city lately. DMC was hilarious, to see a metalhead having such a wussy nature. hahaha super funny! as for shinjuku, well it's quite boring, n i started to notice a pattern whr every chinese movie i watched(forced to), thr's always chopped up arms flying around. First it was protege, now this?! man.. DMC ROCKS! hahaha!

Feeling really crappy lately, due to some personal problems in and out of army. Really sian to even tink abt it at times, thus im gg to start on the 6wks revolution! As pastor said, 3 wks to break a habit, 3 wks to grow a habit. This 6 wks, im gg to push for something out of the natural. 6 wks later, i will be REVOLUTIONIZE!!!

this is wad your childish ridiculous acts of rejection done to people. i hope you're happy.

SUN GUARD DUTY!!!

This week isn't so bad afterall. i mean, i get to book out so many days this wk, the sunday guard duty dun really matter anymore. =)

Fri i went for Men's Confer. It was really good, guys actually get to be like just boys roughing it out together, it was quite a sight, that thank God the ladies wun there to witness it. Let's awaken the mighty one within!

Now im getting rdy to go to NTUC to stock up stuff for the week in camp and guard duty tml. hahaha catch u all next wk!

Preparation

! booking in real soon. wun be available for the next.... 2 wks? the nxt time you guys see me will probably be april already. So meanwhile sit tight n enjoy wad March has to offer still!

This is a quote that i kop from weiting's blog cos i tink it's real content worthy. well here goes nothing

For what it's worth: it's never too late ... to be whoever you want to be.
There's no time limit, stop whenever you want.
You can change or stay the same;there are no rules to this thing.
We can make the best or the worst of it.
I hope you make the best of it.
And I hope you see things that startle you.
I hope you feel things you never felt before.
I hope you meet people with a different point of view.
I hope you live a life you're proud of.
If you find that you're not,
I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

*quotes from Benjamin's postcards to his daughter in movie Curious Case of Benjamin Button"

HAPPY 21ST BDAE JASMINE!

happiest 21st gal! thanks for having us today. I hope you enjoyed as much as i did! And i hope you like the perfume!

3:22AM

im sitting in front of the com, wif a can of beer by my side. It's been pretty long since i last drank, n i had been craving for beer in a while, especially during the urban operations i had awhile back. So here i am, alil groggy over the beer.

If i were to portray my feelings now, it will be.. discouraged. well.. some how. I regretted the decisions i made, when i felt the Holy Spirit tell me no, and i still did it anyway. Somehow, my mind told me to just do it, while He is telling me it's not wise at all. Now, the consequences have come on to me. Sandwiched. So. sandwiched. Now, i could only hope, and pray, continue to have some faith that it will all worked out some how.

stupid jed

i found this verse along the wk.

Hebrews 13:6the Lord is my helper, so i will have no fear. What can mere people do to me?

Let's build our foundation on God and not on people, for He is our solid rock.
Don't let people bring you down, may it be disappointments or fear.
For God will always be the same yesterday, today and forever!
Assure that! :-)

But wad if God already told you so?

all this are just random ranting under the influence of alcohol. dun take it to heart. jed is always fine =)

im off to bed. busy day tml

hey all! along the week, i actually have thoughts of closing this blog. Since i dun rly haf any decent posts to write lately. Well, for starters, i cant blog about army due to security reasons and that's basically most of the stuffs along my wk. For wkends, im always chilling at home or wif you guys already. So.. why blog about something that everybody knows rite? But still, i tried to leave a post weekly, cos i understand sometimes this is probably the only contact that u guys can haf wif me on a closer basis. To actually know about my thoughts, and not my daily routine. A way for everybody to understand one another n help each other. This, is probably my attempt to get everyone starting to share wif each other, their problems, burdens, and most imptly victories together. I always believe, when coals stick together, they keep each other hot, if they are left alone, they burnt out very quickly and insignificantly. So i urge everyone in this times to really stay united.

Fri i had cg at marc's hse. It was pretty weird to haf 4 ppl only, and we were sharing with each other testimonies and the bridge illustration. I thought i did quite a crappy job wif the bridge thing, cos i really seldom do that. It's a different approach i feel, one that i wasn't that comfortable with. Nevertheless, it was a time of great fellowship, and most imptly. we played PS3 - STREET FIGHTER 4!!!!

shiiiiiiiiiiinnnnkkkkkkkkkkuuuuuuuuuu hadoken!!!!! *mass spam buttons*

Sat was hanging out wif xy, derrick, jason wif their individual other 1/2s. Had crystal jade and sum friggin ex sorbets. But it was worthwhile, definitely the LONGEST time since we last sat down and haf a meal together. Den it was targetting setting for the guys minus xy at DFS. lol! i tink it's quite crappy when u put ur heart to get something but nothing's available.

Sun was CHURCH DAY! Pastor Scallion(hahaha sry i cant resist it) was sharing about the 15thRevolution. how we could spend 15 mins of our time, to let ourselves be inconvenience by others. To really find a need, and meet a need. I thought it was pretty awesome. Since my 15 mins is probably going to start tonight. =) I also felt how important you must carry yourself outside the 4 walls of the church, as indeed, your character will probably determine wad God is in your life. I feel that being in army is definitely a challenge, but im changing day by day, trying to create a new expression. A leopard, that can change it's spots.

Anyway, we were supposed to play frisbee today but it started raining heavily =( nevertheless, we had a fun time at Nebo cafe, like minds cafe but a whole lot cheaper =)) it was definitely good time, we really went crazy and i still hope pok is not going to upload our rabid moments on facebook. oh shit. he just came online! hahahaha!

tat's all for now. im gg in. but b4 i do.

HAPPY 21st BDAE GLENDA!

Thanks buddy, for being more den u could. For being a pillar. Enjoy your bdae, sry i cant be there, but i hope u like the present. I know you would =) n i tink she dun read my blog... so could someone ask her to read on thurs! thanks ya! =) im gone.

heyo.

my com is going.. i tink it's just dying already. Everything is becoming so slow. the internet, n my msn. it's like. nothing works like in the past anymore. probably going to get another com after this year.

Today was a good msg. Indeed unity is very powerful and let's look forward to Easter guys. =) I really hope unity stays on wif e410 too. Never never let it die down because of the new environment, missing some familiar faces. It's a new chapter in your life, make the best out of it! Rmb to always love another, dun bully each other ok?

PREPARE AND REJOICE FOR BIGGER THINGS IN LIFE!

Oh and who's up for ultimate frishbee on 15th!? u nid to wake up in the morning, but i will make ur time worthwhile! =D

protect & shelter me, but don't bring it away from me, cos i will conquer it.

hello!

Was on leave since thurs evening. it was kind of a forced leave that we had to take cos we haf absolutely nothing to do in camp tt wk. So here i am, blogging on a sat! Im just too bored of town that i decided to just stay at home and slack. However, im still tinking of catching a movie, maybe slumdog millionaire or wrestler i guess. Role model sucks, boring movie!

I spent my entire wk other den slping reading up on the Harvest magazine. It's really good and there's many articles that gave me a lot of thoughts. Many times at night while i prayed, i couldn't sense the flow of the Holy Spirit at all. All too many times, i find myself praying and answering my own enquiries. What happen to that touch of God then? im a very forgetful person, I need this renewing of the Spirit! i need a new encounter! I been around long enough to stay stagnant this way. I seen how people come and go, seen how people rising up to the occasion. I need that as well. I need to fight and push for bigger breakthroughs! No physical limitation can get me down, i can be better than this!

Anyway, my tp is on 30th May(SAT). Those that need a ride to church, esp those living in my area. PRAY REALLY HARD I WILL PASS! Alrite, im gg to continue to load up videos to my ipod! Cya around~

randomlicious things

If you haven been hearing from me for a while, just wanna say that msn is going bonkers over me lately and i cant stay online for too long at each time to even haf a conversation wif lileng. tat's probably not tt bad since we're shouting to one another most of the time wif our exclamation marks, we're both having sore throats and she's most of the time breathless!

and HAPPY BDAE TO JEROME!

since kokyong has found the link to my blog. guess i cant hide it anymore. hahaha!

my blog has always been a stumbled link for stalkers. First was my fren's gf and now my army friend found it as well. LOL!

anyway a big happy bdae to jerome here. That day was just a chilled out moment wif his wii n flat screen monitor. Wad happen nxt was this.

the guys bought it for him. lol 1 position a day. omg.

wii game! sum random rabid rabbit game. hilarious!

scotty his dog!

after tt was hanging out wif jason on a shopping spree. let's just say, in this economic downturn. we are extremely HAPPY to be spending government's money. So after so many things that i got lately, i decided to finally do up a wishlist too for goal setting or hint for friends!(19sept!) (i am so bored omg.)

1. Ipod Classic 80 GB hard leather pouch

If you see this let me know!!!! ESP SERENE!!!

2. Blackberry Bold 9000

Actually i didn't think about getting it till looking at the design for myself. i was just looking for a friggin big phone screen and a qwerty keyboard actually. I myself was selling iphones for awhile but didn't find the interest at the touchscreen technology either. So after chancing upon Howard's phone and doing a research myself. i tink im quite dead serious to get it already. Howard got the best deal for only 200+, while i haf a lobang for 600+. Now im still wondering. n pondering. hmmmmmmmm...

3. A ahem* wallet. haha i couldn't find any good designs lately. maybe till den i will post it up again!

till den. im gone!

omg. im getting fatter. FIELD CAMP COME BURN ME UP!

V DAY!

a yr later.

For teresa =D
ty for everything people <3

Happy Valentine's Day =))

i watched the curious case of benjamin button yesterday. well for some that might not know and still comtemplating whether to watch it. the story is about a child who was born old, abandoned by his father, grow younger as the day goes by and has a complicated love life with his childhood love, that is growing older by the day. it's 166 mins long, and well. the movie is not tt all fantastic if ure a action fanatic like dan. but if ure looking for a movie that invoke some thoughts, this might be it.

Just think about it, how can you love someone, when you're growing younger by the day, while your loved one is growing older by the day. the struggles of being a father, whose child will one day be older than u? Growing up in an ageing home, where death comes swiftly and a frequent visitor of the home. The meaning of death, amplified when you will get to see most of ur loved ones die before you.

haha i wun go to emo here. but benjamin button did led an interesting life. A seaman, working in the navy, visiting a brothel, travelling to places. i dare say, he led more adult life than those who grew up normally.

So do give it a shot if ure tired of chick flick like bride wars. =X

Anyway since V day is coming near. Rmb to show care n concern to ur loved ones! n yes even though i say nxt yr V day i dun wanna spend wif frens. but tt's wat i say every yr. lol. n yes to derrick's gf, sumtimes instead of finding, i just got to wait for the right one. till den, i got to concentrate on the 3 things i mentioned earlier!

Spiritually, mentally, physically!

im gg off. take care n chill ppl!

i was supposed to blog something that is affecting me lately. but i couldn't bring myself to do it. Cos i shall not dwell in misery. There is too much to lose, i won't give it up just because of some comment.

I will be a better son, a better brother, a better friend, a better child of God. i will build myself up. Spiritually, mentally, physically. i gave it some thought, i shouldn't be pursuing things of the natural when these 3 things are not up yet. I will become stronger and better.

a leopard that is spotless. u will see.

random stuff but still AWESOMELICIOUS

Some thing that i saw on mtv earlier on...

The Rasmus - Justify

Fwah. like. omg. i never knew the Rasmus is so emo. lol cry black tears siol! kinda surprised by the mtv, but it's an awesome song nevertheless.

i finally bought my bag! not wat i haf in mind earlier on, but something subtle for my budget. and the salesperson is rly pretty! hahaha!

wallet nxt?

told u it was random.....

Bystander has MOVED! AGAIN!

yes, bystander has finally step into Haji Lane, joining the peeps @ Greyhomme!

We are now located at 44 Haji Lane, lvl 2 Greyhomme. Do come and visit!

W50X

yep tt's the name of my new cg. X cos we haven confirmed the new number. Sounds kinda cool but weird at the same time. The feeling over all is just very weird still. I came in, sat beside ly n den looked around, everybody's different now. like wow. A very different feeling that i haven felt in the longest time. Some of us are still trying to catch a glimpse of one another while we can in church, or haf sum chatting moment tgt at atm, foodcourt and jazz pub? It's like a part of us are still stick to one another. Jc n i even mistaken strangers to be wei ning and aaron. haha tt's hilarious.

It's like.. the family bonds are closely knitted.

it definitely will take awhile for us to get used to it. rite e410? =)

STEAMBOAT MANIA!

i tink. im going to stop having steamboat for awhile. Went through countless of it in a wk! i got to say the best food can be found in baba seet's hse! the sambal prawns is superb, but definitely a killer. it's like mega mcspicy X10! gives the stomach a quiver~ This is a gd time to meet up old friends, as well as bid farewell to some(nah it's not tt bad!!!) So here are the photos!

Maven's house!

Been a long time since i seen this pal. Still the same, always splurging on food. spent nearly 200 on food tt day, but we didn't even finish 1/2. He's a bartender now though, so we all got treated wif his mix!

Lileng's hse!

This is our last cg gathering together before all of us head to different cg. But it's all gd yea? Great dinner great company, great gameSSSS. YES!

CNY!

CNY! woots! just a little photo updates that i haven done for awhile!

this is my sis. stop saying she looks like me! i tink she looks like teresa now. omg.

My ah ma!

Fwah. suddenly, u feel time rly flies. Im in army, the one in white going to army, the one in blue. wah so tall already. last yr he still little boy!

The ladies!
This is the first grp photo of the cousins. Have never done it before in the past. Definitely the first after so many years. Ah ma did the positioning of us. It was like a 'class photo' moment for us. i guess?

So much has changed. it's quite weird when you think abt it actually. When i was younger. we didn't rly talk much. maybe we're just shy and all, when the fact is we only see each other once a yr. Everybody was so closed up den. And this year, we can actually feel a tinge of everybody opening up to each other. Quite an awesome feeling. Is tt feeling called kinship? As for my other side of cousins, it's hard for us to meet up unlike in the past, when we all haf our own lives to lead. I recall not seeing my younger cousin for like wat.. 2 yrs? Was kinda weird to see her again. Definitely been awhile, esp when memories flood in or wad we used to do together.. Now it's just an awkward smile.. something tt i haven done in awhile. Nevertheless, this yr cny is better. no matter how bad the economy might be, kinship is the bond tt holds all of us tgt. =)

to start off...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY GUYSON!

Actually it's on 30th.. just tt im veri lazy to blog lately. hahaha! Anyway the day was spend with great dinner at dan ryan, den to cafe del mar at sentosa and lastly mega mcgriddles at ECP mac! love to post some photos, den again rly veri lazy lei to post up.. soo...

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=1816765&id=541331849#/album.php?aid=74555&id=541331849

haha. let's just say it's alot of scandalous sneaky stuff, great food, great company, and a damp bed on the beach!

fwah

i tink. im in love. agnes b boston bag. im such a sucker lately.

hey peeps. sry haven been blogging for awhile. been real busy in camp. Actually it has been so rush tt b4 i know it, it's another wkend gone! Anyway i was supposed to do this last wk but.. oh well.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO JO!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANNIE!

Anyway, i have been doing fine in camp, kinda sad tt im still unable to run properly, no cardio workout very taxing to the body! haha im being very random here. But thanks to so many of you that have been praying for me or concerned about me. Army is not so bad, recently just have been eating a lot of sand and dust from all the field camps and training. But everything is fine, im still happy and enjoying it!

Lastly before i break for dinner, i have just been told that i'm going to leave the family with some of the others to join other cgs. Wow, it's been really long since i change cg. few yrs in fact, and i have been stuck to e410 ever since. It's definitely going to be weird to step out again, but it's a new challenge that im going to touch on with marc's cg. I guess 410 will never be the same again with so many of us out, but i know that the spirit we built up there will never change. The vision we cherish will live on. The fire that we build will burn ever brightly! This is what we set on the hill, and nothing can stop us. This is not the END, but a NEW BEGINNING! I yearn many of us will begin to take on bigger giants in life, greater responsibilities too! Change is not bad, it for the better for all of us. Remember, no point building a fire when u cant spread it.

SO LET'S BURN LIKE WILDFIRE!

I once said that wad we haf in our cg, others lack. But wad others have, we lack too. So let's all be the vessels of wad we are, wad we live for and the fire to other cgs. And start alighting them with our FIRE!

Remember, the path might be different from now on, but the ending line will still be the same for all us. It has NEVER change, and it NEVER will. 410 will always be a part of me, a place tt i noe i can fall back on, in times of victory, crisis. everything. Keep on keeping on! GOGOGO!

Love,

Jed

i have 2 hours before my book in. and well, nobody's rly online to chat with either. Thought i spend some time blogging something. heh i guess i rly spend quite a while at home, for like 3 wks? hahaha feels weird to be a civilian n den back to serve again. Tink the most defining moment was cutting my hair short again. lol. weirdness.

anyway i will like to say for 09 rite. this is like wat? the 4th day of the new yr? and im was quite fustrated about sum issues already!

I'll just like to say that sometimes when one's decided to take on an act of being courageous whereby he takes on a responsibility to protect somebody. He must be wise to discern whether his way will be effective, or whether it will affect anyone at all. I admire such acts, but i do know of it's downsides as well. After all, i been thru it, and it costs me a lot.

I wanted to apologise if i said anything wrong to u. But again, i feel that if you're not sharing, u cant possibly help that person. You will just be causing more distress to the others, who are not involved at all. You could tink it doesn't matter, as long as the person is safe. But i tell u, the problem will not be solved by just avoiding it, wad is buried one day will be out again, but by tt time, the problem you buried might haf grown so big cos it's not solved in time. by tt time, are u ready to take wat u buried in? im a person that believes in solving it straight, i dun like to let problems grow on it's own by burying it. I did that once, i regretted it till now.

I will also like to say that everybody deserves a second chance. God gave me more den a second chance. so why couldn't we? We are not perfect, all of us know that we have some flaws. We even see flaws in our friends, so i urge you. Please, why not share it with the person? make it known. if u tink it's awkward, why not do it privately? i mean it's the best we can do as adults. Why not help each other become a better person? Believe in the yellow ribbon project, afterall God believe in it in the first place.

wah. this is a way better post den i written out of anger. haha. told u tis morning was gd!

lol today is the day. feeling abit of jitters. but i noe i'll be fine after last nite. or technically this morning. anyway thanks alot for today. n many ty to lileng for the card.

i feel im like the most blessed nsf around. haha everytime got book in or wat so eva always like high key event. thanks for the love ppl. cya nxt wk!

my last wk out! im kinda happy im finally going back to camp. Been super long already. N this wk i really feel that there's many people of strong will or mentality in the sense in our midst. They just dun reveal themselves to us all the time. Im amazed by the feat they had done. How they manage to emerge out of their circumstances victoriously. Yes, there might be sacrifices at times, it hurts like hell just to take another step forward. but a step at a time, they conquer giants. A step at a time, they walk closer to the light. Before you know it, you emerged out. But ure stronger den b4, matured den b4. Things of the past cant take you down anymore. It's just a fad now compared to wat u are. I'll just like to say i respect each and every one of them from the bottom of my heart, for i cant accomplished wat they did.

I regretted alot of things in my 08. But im not gg to let it put me down tis time. So wad abt army? wad abt my current circumstances? it's nth compared to the trials that they went thru. Now is the dawn of a new horizon. 09. I believe i can achieve much more from now on.

just watch me.